I also realized that this whole 'real world' thing that terrifies me about graduating, etc is just the responsibility of adulthood. It's not that I don't want that responsibility or that I won't own up to it. It's just - I don't like the idea of having someone relying on me. I just don't know how well that would turn out. I guess.

I like having responsibility - but the idea of not having that safety net that your family or college or even just being a teenager supplies is... intimidating. That's all.

Like I was telling my friend Erin, growing old is exhilirating but terrifying. I feel it's the same thing as assuming responsibility as an adult.

Oh dear.