The past week has been a pretty epic rollercoaster. Life has its ups and downs but sometimes they come really close together and leave you shaking and breathless but with a new focus. Sometimes. Sometimes you gain a new insight, make a decision or come to new sort of compromise. The struggle drains you but it ends up in a catharsis. Something shifts - and somehow you find yourself in a odd quiet. Sort of like the quiet after the storm.
It is possible (actually it is most likely) that I've rationalized or irrationalized (depending on your viewpoint) my way into a plane of thinking that will come crashing down sooner or later - but for now that Cloud 9 feeling left by that catharsis is one I refuse to let go of. Finals are in a basically a month - I don't have the time to let me get me. I will shine and make myself, my family and everyone else proud. I will bring the heat and the thunder. I will rise to the top. And for just one last cheesy line: There's no stopping me.
At least I hope.
My life might be rough with it's ups and down but it's a good life. I don't regret more than a few things but even those are nothing more than run of the mill regrets. Nothing especially bad. I have a more than wonderful family, an amazing group of friends and I'm in law school. Law school might not be "exactly" what I had in mind 9 years ago but it's a pretty damn good second-best. At the risk of sounding redundant or like a Hallmark card, my life has its ups and down but I'll take them and take my chances. After all, life is what the living do. What is there to stop me from jumping in?
I'm ready. Actually, I've already taken the plunge. And I'll see you on the other side. ;)
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